Letters to Lynn - Day 43

I miss you so much! You are worth fighting for! I love you!....

"So, what day are you on?


Forty-three.


There's only 40.


Who says l have to stop?


Caleb...


...l don't know how to process this.


This is not normal for you.


Welcome to the new normal.


You didn't wanna do this at first,
did you?


No.


But halfway through, l realized...


...that l did not understand
what love was.


And once l understood that,
l wanted to do it.


Caleb, l want to believe
that this is real.


But l am not ready
to say that l trust you again.


l understand that.


But whether you ever reach
that point or not...


...l need you
to understand something.


l am sorry.


l have been so selfish.


For the past seven years,
l have trampled on you...


...with my words
and with my actions.


l have loved other things
when l should have loved you.


ln the last few weeks...


...God has given me a love for you
that l had never had before.


And l have asked him to forgive me.


And l am hoping, l am praying...


...that somehow
you would be able to forgive me too.


Catherine, l do not want to live
the rest of my life without you.


l'm supposed to give
those divorce papers...


...to my lawyer next week.


l just....


l need some time...


...to think.


You can have all the time you need."

Chris Tomlin - I Will Follow

Brigitte Gabriel...Must See!

I had a chance to see Brigitte speak in person a little over a week ago. She is amazing and this will blow your mind.

Bring It! Game On!

I’m sorry all... I need to vent. The last 24 have sucked! The jist of it is this, I backslid on something I have been fighting for an extremely long time. I am considering writing, in a different post, specifics about what this was but for right now I have a different point to make.

I’m tired of getting the crap kicked out of me! I’m tired of getting the crap kicked out of me by an enemy who has already been defeated! I’m tired of weak Christians! This included me!

I’m tired of being Peter fighting and walking on water to Jesus in the middle of a raging storm only to be brought down at the last minute by fear! Or, getting tossed around in the boat and freaking out when my Lord tells me I should have faith, be at peace (no fear), and to rest.

The first thing that came to my mind after I fell was my God is not mocked and what I sow I will reap. As King David did, after the sin of number his people or after his fall with Bathsheba, I took full responsibility,asked for foregivness, begged for mercy, and braced for Gods rage. I think I was different from the King in one point. I think David had peace about God’s punishment. He was able to see it for the correction it was from a loving father. I’m still working on that. I became overwhelmed with condemnation and regret. Fear about the repercussions my decision would have.

Forget all that! Each day is new! I choose to fight!

My plea to you beloved is this... Don’t get bogged down in your sin. Stand up! Fight! You have a Lord, a Savior, a Husband who DIED to bring you life and wash you clean. DON'T EVER TAKE THAT FOR GRANTED! Rest in the peace you have been given. Fight and resist with the strength and authority you have been given! In this truth is the victory over sin. IN HIM WE ARE REDEEMED AND NEVER DEFEATED!

SATAN I HATE YOU! I hate you for attempting to separate me from my God! I hate you for stealing my family! I hate you for stealing my peace and joy! By His strength and power you have been defeated. Hands off! Hands off my relationship with my God (WHO IS YOUR GOD TOO, SO GET READY TO BOW)! Hands off my wife! Hands of our marriage! Hands off me! We are spoken for! Hands off my future and my ability to be used by God! You want war you got it! BRING IT! I WILL BRUISE MY HEAL ON YOUR HEAD!

Song Lyrics...
When the lights go up and the game is on
Are you ready for me? Cause I'm ready for you
When the bell rings out and the fight is on
Are you ready for me? Cause I'm ready for you

It's time for us to start throwing down
Take a look and see who's standing now

Didn't even know that you and I were cross
Until a sneak attack from the weak side
Unaware that we were in a fight
I guess that's part of the problem, but guess what

Say what you want to say about me
Throw up what you want to throw up at me
But when you mess with those that are around me
That's when you and I will have a problem

I'm not afraid of loving my enemies
Turning the other cheek
Blessing those that would curse me
I honestly want peace with you
But when you come against my country
When you come against my family
You try to destroy my people
I can't just stand by
There's no way that I can stand by
This time, I will not stand by
I am coming, and if I come, then pain is coming with me
I'm coming, and pain will be with me

Christian lyrics - GAME ON LYRICS - DISCIPLE

Disciple - Rise Up

See Yourself as God Sees You by Josh D. McDowell

I cannot say enough good things about this book. It is absolutely amazing.

Lindsay McCaul- Come Rest

This is a great new song by Lindsay McCaul. I can’t even begin to count the number of times I have tried to win the Lords love. I know I’m not alone in this. I think anyone who is reading this would be hard pressed to say they have never tried to earn love. We do it with God and also the loved ones we surround ourselves with. We think if we just work a little harder we can get them to love us. We exhaust ourselves to the point of death.

Psalm 127:2 (ESV)
It is in vain that you rise up early
and go late to rest,
eating the bread of anxious toil;
for he gives to his beloved sleep.

I have at times been the Martha to my wife’s Mary…

Luke 10:38-42 (KJV)
38Now it came to pass, as they went, that he entered into a certain village: and a certain woman named Martha received him into her house.

39And she had a sister called Mary, which also sat at Jesus' feet, and heard his word.

40But Martha was cumbered about much serving, and came to him, and said, Lord, dost thou not care that my sister hath left me to serve alone? bid her therefore that she help me.

41And Jesus answered and said unto her, Martha, Martha, thou art careful and troubled about many things:

42But one thing is needful: and Mary hath chosen that good part, which shall not be taken away from her.

I saw irresponsibility instead of love and submission. Oh how wrong I was.

Are there any others out there who can relate? Have you attempted salvation by works only to come up short? Who is your Mary? Is it possibly time to ask for their forgiveness? Is it time to forgive them… and yourself?

God bless beloveds!




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